Now i'm sitting in my senior year in senior high school and it's a good opportunity to start it all. To learn, to change, to believe in myself. although i'd still trying to handle myself but i do believe in me. In fact that time flew really fast without me realizing. I still can't believe that I almost become an adult and one step more before I'm going to the college. It's a new beginning for me and it's a big step into the future. I know that time is so damn precious so I hope that I'm capable of using it really carefully and really just in time.
New Semester - I should study more often and get my high score. I have to. I want to make my parents proud of having me. I want to prove that I'm not the dumb girl that they always talking about because I'm not. I'm smart and I know it. I'm just lazy to study and maybe I'm overthink back there. I'm silence too much but actually there's a lot of things in my mind that I was afraid of letting it all out. But I won't silence no more. That is just not who i really am and it feels like being in a cage that have no key so i can't go out. It's all because I'm too shy to introduce myself into this real world (not a fantasy). I just wanna go out of the box. Go out from my comfort zone and taste the world.
I know that I am more than they say I am. I'm tired of people who always talk down to me. Although sometimes their critics are spicy and hurts a little bit. But 'em it whats push me even harder. Makes me wanna show them that I'm the opposite of what they said. That I can't, I will not make it, I'm a loser, I'm a failure, I'm a slow thinker, stupid, dumb or anything else. Say whatever you want, negative people. Thanks for the support after all this time until the day it comes, it will always be my pusher. Now what I'm gonna do just use my brain and my cleverness and also courage in my pocket. I'm gonna let it shine :)
"I am my own experiment, I am my own work of art." - Madonna
They say: Senior Year is the place to discover yourself. Oh, I couldn't agreed more. Have you ever wonder what will you become and what are you gonna be like? Are you mature enough? and it keeps haunting you and makes you so nervous? maybe that's why i lack my self-confidence after all this time i'm hiding. OVERTHINKING.
Overthinking sure kills happinness and it propagates to distrust in yourself. The key is: Do not listen to a word they say and overthink. Think positive will makes you be in the right way and just be happy. Take enjoy as well :) no regrets, let go of the past and most of all.......
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